I have not acted out in anger for an incredibly long time. Look back through my posts. I have been polite always. I have not insulted others. I ask questions or make comments and move on. I take nothing personally and have no ill will towards others in any way. Their opinions are their opinions and the more divergent the more entertaining I find it. It is somewhat disconcerting that you have not noticed my behavior has improved.
I think you have type cast me based on my previous behavior. There was a reason for it but I am not justifying it. I got over what it was. Before that period I was a good member of the board. Reputations ruined are hard to overcome but i do my best. I enjoy the board and mostly always have. When I did not, it was all on me and the rough time I was going through. I could not go out and beat someone over the head so I did it here. My post that I responded to with embarrassment was over two and a half years ago. I was not hearing myself clearly back then. I was shocked, truthfully.
I understand that there are consequences to actions but I for one harbor no grudges. I sense that you might. There is always an edge to your replies to me. I don't think it is purely imaginary. I hope I am wrong. I have a great deal of respect for you and admire what you have accomplished in Pats. I don't think I have ever had more fun than I have had on numerous occasions at FLB. You know how to run a bar!
The post you replied to was just another form of the many apologies I have made to the board and privately to board members like Joe and C.T. and others. I make one last apology to you. It is in ernest but it is also my last. I have done nothing in a very long time to apologize for and I never will act out in anger here again. If I am not welcome or if I must forever wear some metaphoric scarlet letter in your eyes, perhaps I will never be truly welcome here or in the bar.